Transition

So I really am in a moment..well maybe not a moment...a place of transition. I'm starting to question everything and everyone around me. Do this person or thing have a purpose in my life is the question for everything. I was sitting on the couch last night with John(my something like a boyfriend) and I was wondering do I really love him...is he the person I want to spend my life with. And I truly have no clue to either question. I wish life came with directions. I really do. On a lighter note: I'M GOING TO PHILLY!

I love Philadelphia, thats where I was born and I get an adrelene rush everytime I go there. I can't wait to get there and be carefree for a week. I miss my cousin Donna and I get to see her son. Then I Landon gets to see his dad. Thats always an akward moment.

Me and Maurice story short: Fall in love, plan 2 get married, break-up, get pregnant, he stop tlkin 2 me, he gets engaged,Landon's born, ask 4 a DNA test(the nerve), he gets married, they break up and now he wants to be best friends! LMAO! CRAZY??? I KNOW!

Anyway I hope I have fun...catch up lata

Trying Something New

I've been hearing a lot about different people's blogs and follow some of my friends, but I never thought I would get one...but here I am. I decided I'm going to make a change in the way I live my life, how I deal with people, the way I handle situations...just everything! I want to change everything! So I thought a blog would be a good way to document my change and a great outlet. A place to come and just let everything that happens in my weird... sometimes boring...crazy life. Right now I'm at a point where I don't consider anyone a close friend...sad...pathetic....lol...trust me I know. I know most people have a million friends, but I'm just not one of those people....not sure I want to be either. Theres three levels to my so called friends...the 1st is people who I call friends but dont truly trust nor do I think they trust me...Secondly is people who I associated with, whether it be on the internet or just when I see them...Then last is the people who I was once close with but don't really talk to anymore but pretend to still be close when I see them.lol I know weird and too much work for nothing. Right now I don't have that much of a social life since I had my son. Landon. which is caused by a lack of a babysitter...*Note* If you are pregnant anyone who says they will watch your baby (including mothers) most likely will never watch your baby.lol Anyway I just really wanted a place where I could be completely honest and could help me grow into the person I want to be. And also document my path to my true happiness whatever it be...because right now I'm not happy with anything.