Trying Something New

I've been hearing a lot about different people's blogs and follow some of my friends, but I never thought I would get one...but here I am. I decided I'm going to make a change in the way I live my life, how I deal with people, the way I handle situations...just everything! I want to change everything! So I thought a blog would be a good way to document my change and a great outlet. A place to come and just let everything that happens in my weird... sometimes boring...crazy life. Right now I'm at a point where I don't consider anyone a close friend...sad...pathetic....lol...trust me I know. I know most people have a million friends, but I'm just not one of those people....not sure I want to be either. Theres three levels to my so called friends...the 1st is people who I call friends but dont truly trust nor do I think they trust me...Secondly is people who I associated with, whether it be on the internet or just when I see them...Then last is the people who I was once close with but don't really talk to anymore but pretend to still be close when I see them.lol I know weird and too much work for nothing. Right now I don't have that much of a social life since I had my son. Landon. which is caused by a lack of a babysitter...*Note* If you are pregnant anyone who says they will watch your baby (including mothers) most likely will never watch your baby.lol Anyway I just really wanted a place where I could be completely honest and could help me grow into the person I want to be. And also document my path to my true happiness whatever it be...because right now I'm not happy with anything.